I've undergone some relatively major life changes lately and I feel all philosophical and pretentious, so please allow me to begin:
People are vitally important.
I've always had people in my life that were a center ground for me, but in the last year my focus has changed at how I approach relationships with others. By that I mean, the amount of importance I place in those relationships. So many people can teach us so many things, even if they mean to or not. I am constantly learning and taking in from others by listening. One thing that I always find that trips me out is that when we pass someone on the street we have no idea.. what is their name, where do they come from, what do they do, what do they like, what have they overcome, what have they seen? Then there they go, keep walking along and then they're gone. That is a life that we cross likely only that one time, and never see them again. I like to think that that person makes an impact, even if it's so subtly.
There is this lady that I met at the Taco Bell drive through window one time, I was having a super shitty day and pulled up to the window to pay.. she IS a Kirsten Dunst doppleganger with pink nails, pink eyeshadow, pink blush, pink lipstick, pink hair, everything about this girl is pink. I just stared at her while fumbling for my card, she had the sweetest smile and was so overly happy when she said "hi!" and told me my total. As I handed her the card I couldn't help but smile! That would have been so rude if I hadn't, and I would have been such a jerk to let my shitty day bring down this pretty pink version of Kirsten Dunst. My day progressively got better after that, I couldn't help it! I still think about her, and always because I'm grateful for her bright pinkness making my day less shitty. She really did make an impact, and I bet she has no idea. I wonder if her hair is even still pink, or if she changes up her color every week? I totally love Taco Bell and I have not seen her there again. At least I know she's out there making the day pinkly beautiful one day at a time.
The point of that is sometimes no matter how happy of a person we are, we need others to help lift us up to where we belong. I know I'm a happy person, and I can be that because I like to think that I surround myself with some pretty great people. The stories that I've heard from the people around me affect me in so many ways, and I am always proud of those who surround me. The determination and drive of people as a whole to push forward and strive to be better each day is one of the greatest things that I see in people, and this is something that I can believe in.
The relationships that we make, that we chose to make- and how they become what we put into it. I have a lot of catching up to do. I think that I have a lot to give; I want to meet more people, travel to farther distances, and build what I already know. Each and every person in my life I still find myself constantly learning more about them. We can never know everything, and I love knowing that as we all grow and evolve there is always more to learn. People are never stagnant. I can never know everything, and I love that.
That's something that someone intimately close to me once said; I love hearing it because hearing that forced me to believe it since I had to prove it. I have faith in everyone around me, we're all here for a reason and it's because we need and believe in each other. That need and faith will never go away for me. When I say that to those around me, I truly do mean it. I have faith in all of us that even when life gets difficult and unclear, we're going to figure it out, because we have to, and we will.
I won't ever forget the things that others have done for me, and I will never forget people who may become part of my past as I venture forward. All the people who have touched my life have helped shape me into who I am. Without all these people, there is no way that I could be the person I am today. Change is weird. It's hard, it can also be exciting, and sad, and promising. Right now there is a lot of change, and I think I am ready. At least, I am starting to be.
These are the people who matter to me. You may not know all their faces or names; but I can promise to you that each individual is brave, hilarious, spectacular, entertaining, quirky, stubborn, wonderful and has made a great positive impact on my life. These are the people who have helped shape me into who I am now, and people that I hope will still be here as I figure out who I am ultimately going to be. I can never have enough thanks for any one person to let them know how much they matter to me. Thank you and I am forever indebted to all of you for making my life so unbelievably amazing.
